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A brighter side…

Saturday, April 18th, 2009 | Uncategorized | 1 Comment

As I talk to certain people and connect at a certain level I realized that we have something in common. We’re on the same journey with similar obstacles, we’re not alone. Just as I thought I was going crazy, I found someone who felt the same way I did…same feelings, different story.

It’s comforting to know that someone out there understands what you’re going through and how you feel. It’s nice to know you have someone to relate to and walk side by side to. It’s just upsetting to think ahead and know that someday you will both go your own ways and fend for your life in this cruel world on your own again…until you bump into another person who felt the same. Again, same feelings, different story.

History repeating itself.

Just enjoy the moment you realized that you’re not really alone and you have someone to talk to and love. Live your life to the fullest and never look back. Keep one foot forward and get ready to face the unexpected.

Love yourself, it makes all the difference.

Apathy

Tuesday, April 14th, 2009 | Uncategorized | No Comments

“Apathy is a state of indifference, or the suppression of emotions such as concern, excitement, motivation, and passion. An apathetic individual has an absence of interest or concern to emotional, social, or physical life. They may also exhibit an insensibility or sluggishness.”

Now that’s a descriptive word for how I feel at the moment. I feel emotionless and empty in a way. What used to make me smile seems to have no effect what so ever. I become irritated very easily and my patience level has gone down drastically. I feel like I have no control over this either. I feel like a spectator in my own life. All this makes me feel like I’m going crazy…

I’m not sure if there is anyone out there that can relate to how I feel some days. I feel like I’m bipolar because I begin the day in one mood and then I feel so different by the end of the day. Some days I’m super happy and other days I feel like just laying in bed all day. I’m not sure if it’s stress that causes my moods to go from one extreme to the other because some days my mood gradually changes. It depends on the events of the day.

I think I’m just over a lot of things. I’ve grown tired of trying to be the best at everything I do because every time I put my heart and soul into something I fall short. I always put in work and effort to show how much I care but it seems like no one ever cares how much thought goes into that so really, why should I care then. I’m not going to move ahead in any way right now, so I should care when it’s really needed.

To me, the world seems to be emotionless too. It feels like no one leads with their heart anymore. People seem to be driven by material possessions and not by their brain and heart.

I feel like this world has lost its direction and I’ve lost mine in its rotation. I’ve lost my thoughts so I’ll continue later.

Nature at its best.

Monday, April 6th, 2009 | Uncategorized | No Comments

Today is a beautiful day! The weather is just right… sure the sun is a bit warm but there is a perfect breeze that is gentle and glides gentle by your face. Unfortunately for me, today is a school day which means I will have to enjoy the day from campus. I’m here from 10am to about 9pm… maybe 7 if I’m lucky and my lab ends early. I’m about 5 weeks from summer vacation so you can imagine how excited I am right now. Hopefully I can save money and go to Mexico again. If I can, then I’ll break my record of times I’ve gone in a school year!

Uh oh… i have class in 15 minutes. I kind of got sidetracked. Well, at least I got the chance to update this thing because it’s been a while since I last logged in.

Gotta go. Update later… Peace! Enjoy this wonderful day!